March 18, 2016
39: “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."
“Yet not as I will, but as you will”
God’s plan isn’t always the most peaceful. It’s actually pretty painful most of the time. Even Jesus asks God to take his cup away.
I have a really strong will, and that’s a bad thing because I inherently want bad things. God has the ultimate will, and that’s a good thing because HE wants good things. Every day, in every situation, I am fighting between my will, and His Will. Even things I’ve been doing for some time, like going to morning prayer, doing QT, reading the bible… there’s always at least as little fight between what I want, and what He wants. What I want leads to death, and what He wants leads to life. I know this, I believe this, but I find myself habitually and mindlessly taking the path that leads to death. Even those times that I do take steps towards life, my heart is not always there, and I am just kind of an empty shell just going through the motions. Even so, this is better than nothing. It’s still a good habit at worst.
I didn’t have the burning passion to pray when I went to morning prayer this morning. I didn’t have the burning passion to do this QT, and I don’t have much burning passion to do anything good today, but I did go to morning prayer, I am doing this QT, and I will try to do something good for someone else today when situations come my way, not because as I will, but because what God wills, and because as painful as His will may be at times, it’s the best path, and I trust in Him more than I trust in myself to lead me to and through life.
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