December 21, 2015
1: My brothers, as believer in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ, don’t show favoritism.
12: Speak and act as those who are going to be judged by the law that gives freedom,
13: because judgment without mercy will be shown to anyone who has not been merciful. Mercy triumphs over judgement!
So, I don’t know how realistic this is. It makes sense, and it’s good, but is it possible to actually practice it in life? If we do, there wouldn’t be beggars, or there would be beggars in my church, beggars in my apartment. But clearly there are risks of danger associated with unstable people. You can get hurt. To not have any judgement is impossible.
Today’s QT is aiming for ideal. It cannot be reached, but perhaps the point isn’t to reach it, and perhaps the fact that we cannot reach it shouldn’t discourage people from striving for it. They’re a saying that goes you reach for the stars, and you end up on a moon. Reaching for this ideal may help us get to a better place than I am now.
How does it feel when I’m favorited for or against? It feels good and it feels bad. When I was younger, I was actually against favoritism, and I was more fair with everyone, but even though some people thought that was somewhat noble, most people though it was robotic. It’s no east asian / Korean culture. It’s funny to verses like these in the bible.
However, as I grew older, I became more and more for favoritism. It was perhaps because I didn’t want to be feel excluded, or wanted to be taken care of, wanted to be more communal. Independence is good, but no one is really independent. We all live together on this planet.
I don’t know. I used to be idealistic, but find myself becoming more realistic as I get older. I’ve come to know too much of my own limitations and flaws that fail even my own ideals every day. I cannot be as generous even what I’d like to be, let alone as generous as God would like me to be. And, I’m just so sorry to God. I take so much advantage of God, yet I have such difficult time letting others take advantage of me.
Ultimately, I’m free of judgment, for the one and only reason that I believe in Jesus and His resurrection, the law that gives me freedom from judgment, so I am free from judgment from all my failings. But I owe my freedom to the one who saved me, and the one who saved me keeps asking me to do better. Not that I have to or I will be condemned, but that I should, for His sake and my sake.
Application: work on Christmas list, do qt first thing tomorrow morning, read a random chapter of Psalms before each meal