April 29, 2015
In today’s QT, I realized that Jeroboam and Rehoboam were two different people. I was bit confused because I thought they were the same person. The names are so similar, but I now know that Rehoboam is the foolish one, and Jeroboam is the good one. I’m sorry I’ve been more like Rehoboam than Jeroboam. You know me. I’m just hopeless like that, but I have you. Yesterday was a weird day. I was all feeling out of whack as I was thinking deeply about my life and this world. The world is so amazing, but also so messed up, and so am I and everyone else in it. It’s hopeless without you, and we are all just absolutely hopeless without you, and not enough of us even care to do much about it including myself. For one, we can’t do much. You have to do it. For two, we don’t want to do it. Isn’t that the sad truth? But you have your ways, and you will will be done. Give me courage to give myself up as necessary to take part in your doing. And you know, you know what I need… I would really appreciate it if you could sooner rather than later, so that I don’t anything stupid according to my own will, because I don’t really know what to do about a lot of things. Guide me as you’ve guided me in the past and will guide me in the future.
Application: go to Wednesday service