April 11, 2015
In today's QT, Solomon builds the temple of the LORD. As it was completed, the word of the LORD came to him and said HE will fulfill the promises HE made with David through him if he follows HIS decrees, carry out HIS regulation, and obey all HIS commandants. I know that Solomon fails at this. The wisest man in the old testament fails to do what seems to be a simple enough task given by the LORD. That's why Jesus had to come. Who can possibly earn grace. It had to be given. Who can possibly make the universe, everything, and everyone in it. It had to given.
I'm so weird. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in a simulation. There is no way for me to know for sure. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm supposed to do some things differently. I had a weird experience when I was young. After school, instead of going home, I stopped by the arcade, and I left my red bicycle outside, which I received as birthday present, and it was stolen when I came out of the arcade. This is fine, but a few days later, I read a book that literally told this story, and inside this was more stories about video game characters' lives inside their video games. One of them in particular was a man on a bike doing jumps through landscape and dodging obstacles. He would keep getting hurt in the game over and over because of bad jumps and hitting obstacles. I remember feeling bad for him for getting hurt all the time, but also for being trapped inside a video game. To this day, I don't know if this is some kind of custom story book my parents decided to have someone write so teach me a lesson, or if it was my imagination. But I'm no different than the bike character. I'm sort of trapped in this universe. I try things, go through jumps and hoops to get more points in this life, hit obstacles, get hurt, and repeat the next day. What is the point? Happiness I suppose. Yeah, happiness is quite wonderful. The thing about happiness is that it doesn't happen when you're by yourself. It happens while you're with others in a harmonic way. I beauty in music and systems work the same way. For this to happen, there are definitions that have been preset, the way things are, set by God. I mean if this is a simulation, someone had to have made the simulation, and decided how things are simulated. I don't know where this is going, but I need to out to lunch soon. If all of this was a simulation, I believe the Creator to be the God of the bible. I've encountered nothing else in my life that answers my questions better. I'm not saying that everything makes perfect sense. It requires leap of faith, but it's the best answers to life I've encountered, and everything is in has been of the truth for me.
I sometimes see glimpses of happiness in me, in people, as well as potential for happiness between people. Often unrealized, often because of fear. The social quota to fit into a box that everyone is comfortable and the fear that you don't quite fit into the box. I suppose there might be chaos if everyone did whatever they wanted. But it's hard to be real with a lot of people and to get to know them because of this. Everyone has a face on that fits the box, and everyone is a box, including myself, and it's really hard to tell what's inside the box, including myself. It gets worse between the sexes. I don't have a solution. I trust in the LORD to guide my step each and every day.
Lastly, I think possibly the only real yet temporary escape from this universe is through prayer.
Application: praise the LORD with joy and thankfulness at United Worship