April 3, 2015
In today's QT, Jesus says "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise." This man did not believe in Jesus in a sense that he just saw him as a man who has done nothing wrong. He however did fear God and sided with Jesus. Jesus extends his grace to this criminal, instantly saving him, for whatever happened during this short moment.
After praying for an hour yesterday, which was really difficult, I called my dad. I told him I'm pretty much done with school now, and I just have to go to class a few more times and write a paper. Then he told me he prays to God all the time for my green card in the US. I didnt' say anything at the time, but looking back, I think I could have asked him to pray in Jesus's name. Even though, his request is something I want myself, it seemed like his relationship with him and God was that of a magician and a magic wand. I was kind of doing the same thing pretty much half of the time I was praying for an hour. I did however in the end, let it go, and said if the what I'm praying is against your will, you will be done, and I meant it, not that I have stopped requesting. But that put my heart at peace. Requesting, requesting, and requesting alone does not bring God's peace it seems. Even though, by requesting, you are implying his dominance over all things, but if you are insisting on your request, then you are making God smaller than yourself, which means you're on your own, which is not a peaceful state. True peace under God's kingdom is not only a comforting thing, but also a powerful thing. I still rely too much on myself when facing trouble, especially decisions. Each decision has its pros and cons, but the pros and cons I can measure at from my vantage point, which is not complete. A better approach is to ask the living God to make the decision for me from his vantage of point. But I think the difficult part, is listening to God and understanding which way God wants you to go, because I get in the way. Another perspective on this is that God really doesn't care which way I go. He wants me to go his way, and there is only one way, or one destination. Whatever decisions I make, if I base it on that factor alone, as to whether it's the best path towards that destination or not, makes decision making easy. There are some things where it doesn't really matter which way, in which case, it doesn't really matter. For example, choosing between Coke and Pepsi for lunch. Who cares, should probably go with water. But there are some big decisions do make a bigger difference than these, and so far I have been weighing those decisions without measuring stick. I have that measuring stick, I know it, and it guides my life for the most part, but I have not explicitly tried to use it for making big decisions. Maybe it's make things clear, or maybe not, but I should give it a try.
Application: pray for 1 hour