April 2, 2015
In today's QT, the disciples' inability to do as Jesus does even while with him is both a comforting and discomforting thought. It's comforting because it's comforting to know that even they couldn't do that well. It makes me shortcomings seem smaller. At the same time, it's discomforting because well it's pushing me to try harder. Also, I see how difficult it was even for Jesus to do what he intended to do, but he knew what he had to do, and he obeyed in the end. He presented his request, but ultimately yielded to God's will. God is a living God, and he sends signs. I see the signs now and then, but I don't understand it, and I'm not sure if it's just me who wants to see it a certain way for myself, or if he really means it that way, or if it's the evil one trying to do his thing. I can sense my life closing in toward yet another critical moment in my life. Now is the time to pray more than ever, and stay awake, and keep watch. Do what Jesus told his disciples to do to the best of my capabilities.
Application: pray for 1 hour