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John 19:23-30

March 15, 2015

In today’s QT, the thing that is standing out to me the most is when Jesus said “I am thirsty” just before his death. They soak a sponge in a jar a wine vinegar and wet Jesus’s lips. At first I wondered if this is really what he wanted. Maybe he’s talking about “the drink” or the “the cup" that he prayed would be taken away from him. Perhaps, now he felt that it is now his time to take the drink and die. So, I just looked a little more into wine vinegar, and apparently, this roman wine vinegar given to people being crucified is laced with drugs to ease the pain and suffering. Earlier when Jesus was offered this drink, he refused, supposedly to keep his mind clear in order to fulfill what must be done with clear mind. It says in verse 28 that Jesus said “I am thirsty” when he knew all was now completed. Then he says “It is finished.” and gave up his spirit.

This is a sad scene, but also a glorious one, and also a grateful one. The death is sad, but because there is this death, there is also the resurrection, which is at the core of my belief. Jesus died in this scene, but what's important is that Jesus also came back to life. This is the leap of faith that separates the saved and justified with the sacrifice of Jesus. This is the good news that this leap of faith open the way to God and to heaven, and opens the eyes and ears to see the truth and the world the way it really is. This is the red pill in the movie Matrix that let’s you see the truth, and once you’ve seen it, you can’t un-see it. One might argue ignorance to this truth is bliss. Why not just live in the world soaked up in all its sad ways in slavery to sin, be comfortable, be ignorant, and slave away build your own temporary heaven on earth? Because that is death. That is a life trapped in sin. Life of a slave driven through a nose ring pulled by an evil master to wreak havoc with the world.

On the hand, life of faith in Jesus Christ might seem like a slavery as well, but it’s really more about being part of the family of the greatest master, the one who created all. Sure, there are restrictions, and you’re not free to do whatever you want, but it’s for your own good. It’s kind of like playing in a playground. Suppose you have a backyard in a house, and there are woods behind it. There is a fence around the house. There is a parent watching a child play in the playground. As long as the child remains in the playground under the supervision of the parent, the child can play safely, and truly just play. On the other hand, if no one is watching the child, or if child was all alone in the woods, is the child playing, and is the child desperately fighting for survival in the wild? Perhaps this fighting for survival thing is appealing to some, as it was appealing to me at one point, even looked somewhat glorious, fighting for yourself, but it’s a sad life. In that scenario, you’re a fighter in a world full of fighters fighting for survival, and it’s a tiresome, jarring life that will eventually get you down. You might win some, and build yourself some things, only to try to protect it with little control that you have from others that want to fight you for it, and then in the end, it’s been for nothing, meaningless, and dry, temporary. Take the leap of faith, take the red pill, and you’re a child in a playground, at peace knowing that your parent is watching over you, being loved by the parent, learning to love others in the playground, and all that you need, given to you. Sometimes, you might ask for fire, or gun, or drugs, things that are not good for you, and the parent will not give it to you, but it’s for your own good. You might want sugar all the time, but you have to eat your vegetable type of thing.

After bible study yesterday, couple of friends and I talked for hours about random things, and among of them, marriage, which we also talked about in the bible study. I have lots of thoughts on this matter, but I stop here for today.

Application: read Romans, pray before going to sleep